An almost retraction...

In my medication post in which I was whining about PCOS and "well meaning female friends" insisting the grass was greener on my side of the fence because my side has no periods, regardless of other negative ailments that come along with my yard, I focused on how the grass is greener thing is not always greener.

I knew I could point this out because I don't play the greener grass thing. Or so I thought.

Tinka called to make sure I was not necessarily referring to a specific person. This led us to a conversation about there are always situations where at some point every one wants the greener grass. I agreed but knew I was much better than that, especially if the grass in question was a sensitive grass area. Or so I thought.

Well I went to get my hair cut shortly there after and told the stylist how I wish my hair grew faster. She said that every person she has ever dealt with doesn't like something about their hair and wishes it was different. She pointed out that those with thick hair want it to be thinner. Those with thin hair what it to be thicker. Curly hair needs to be straight and straight would be so much better curly. If it grows too fast the cut doesn't last long....blah blah blah. I told the stylist that all that didn't really matter to me because all those other people she was talking about had positive things where as my hair grows extremely slow and so therefore it was not good. "Come on", I said, "I don't care what the "perceived" problems are with all these people with great hair. I could totally deal with the "problems" if my hair just grew faster.

Then an amazing thing happened. I looked into the mirror and saw Tinka sitting on my shoulder rolling her eyes, laughing and pointing at me. Not really, but Tinka was in my thoughts as I was rolling my eyes, laughing and pointing at me. I thought of our previous conversation and realized I just played the grass is greener.

I called Tinka to tell her about my revelation and we enjoyed a good laugh. Then I realized how much I do wish my grass was greener. I realized that I could think of several things of Tinka's that are sooooo much greener than mine. Despite her wishing her grass was greener about two things in which I would mow lawns until the cows come home to have, I realized I have insensitively brushed her off by saying, 'even though you think of it as a negative and I think you are nuts to think that, I could totally deal with the negatives just to have the problems you wish you didn't have'.

Hmmmmmm Who does that sound like? I can now admit it, I sound like my "well meaning female" friend in my PCOS rant.

Don't get me wrong here, even though I realize I play the grass is greener game, this post is not a total retraction of my PCOS rant. You must understand, my problems are different and worse than yours and my grass is brown. Yours is green and plush, so it is ok that I want your grass even though you think your grass is light green. But remember, you must be totally senstive to my grass and see it for what it is...brown and dead.

LOL, I am just joking. It was a very simple moment that made me see that I too am the "well meaning female". It was quite the moment to see how I need to be thankful for any grass that I have.